Lying Awake...

The last few nights have gifted me with the inability to sleep well. I suppose that should be expected. The other night I crawled into bed at 10:30 pm and didn't fall asleep until a little bit after 3:30 am. I know that hormones are probably mostly to blame for that. The same ones that are a blessing when you need to get up at all hours with a new baby just give you a whole lot of extra time with yourself and a dark room when there is no baby.

I did a lot of thinking, a lot of praying, organizing, cleaning... if I had actually gotten out of bed and done a few of those things I would have felt a lot more productive. At any rate, while I was lying there I realized how very different this year is going to be from when I said "Happy New Year", and meant it. I was so excited that we would be welcoming our Rainbow Baby boy this year.

Oh, how I was wrong. I had no idea what the next 24 hours would hold.

I have a whole different view for my New Years Resolutions than I did when I was actually ringing in the new year. So, in order to keep myself accountable...
1) Lose the 8-10 pounds of fertility drugs and baby weight (sooner than later and keep it off)
2) Organize and de-clutter the house especially the kid/baby stuff
3) Get the last bit of our revolving debt paid off by not spending as much
4) Spend less time on the computer
5) Spend more time on myself physically, spiritually and mentally

Five is decent. I don't want to overwhelm myself and though some of these should be pretty easy, others are going to take a little more and consistent effort. I'm feeling pretty ok about being able to keep these. We'll see if it takes all year or if I can check a few of these off before then. Here's to the first week of this year being the worst week of this year.