Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas Eve!

'Twas the night before Christmas and all through the house,

all the creatures were still stirring, probably even a mouse.

The children were (almost) nestled all snug in their beds!

Wearing new jammies after washing their heads...

Day Two...

Day two of our travels took us from Missoula, MT to Billings, MT (basically). The morning started with a little bit of pamper time for me - hair cut and color from Jim's cousin. That is always the fastest two hours when we can just chat and not worry about any one listening since she opened the salon just for us!

When I got back to the house we said our goodbyes and loaded into the van and hit the road! There's a bison farm along the way but it was snowing so hard it was tough to get a good pic.

Rylan, once again, was thrilled with the train tracks on his side of the car.
There were SO many bald eagles through about a 5 mile stretch. It was still snowing hard so I think that pushed them down into the trees, this one was working on a fresh catch from the river.

These were just two, of the five in this tree.

Once we got a couple hours east, the snow stopped and it was easier to see.

More trains for the little guy.

Continental Divide, getting closer!

One of the neat old buildings west of Bozeman, took this one while I was chatting with my mom on the phone... multitasking!

One last shot on the east side of Bozeman Pass. Not too much later, the sun was down and we were driving in the dark again.

This leg of the trip is usually 5 hours. And wouldn't you know it... we pulled out of Missoula at exactly 1 pm and hit the Laurel exit at 6 pm! It was so nice to be able to, safely, travel along at 75-77 mph for the majority of the trip.

Grandma has had some fun things planned for the kids. They've been baking, to Build A Bear, Chuck E Cheese, out to lunch, eye exams (and yah, it was of course mommy who need the new Rx... again, their vision is great!), Zoo Lights and right now they are out delivering plates of the goodies that they made and cards that Karleigh drew to the neighbors! They're having a great time and are very excited for tomorrow!

14 hours!!!

Our trip to Montana started out sketchy. This is the view out our front porch the day before we left and it continued to snow all night long. This may not be a shocking sight to most but in the Pacific Northwest, this equals a lot of snow. We can only imagine how much is at the house now since it was dark when we left and this was before the "big" storm!

Since we left our home at 5:52 am (yawn!) it was a bit nerve-wracking. We needed chains on the van just to get out of the driveway and down the hill. Jim was able to take them off about 6 miles from the house and just take it slow the rest of the way. We got to Gresham, OR - only about 25 miles from our house and the wind started to howl. We also saw the big rigs lined up and chaining up on the side of the road under the first warning sign about hazardous travel. At that, we decided to stop in Troutdale, grab a back-up pair of chains (you can never be too prepared) and wait for it to get a bit lighter before we hit the restricted travel areas... that was a smart choice.

Multnomah Falls was flowing but slowly and all the other falls around it, through the gorge, were frozen.

Hummm, thanks for the warning... ICE.

This is what I-84 looked like just outside Cascade Locks... 30 mph was pretty much the top speed.

The kids thought the frozen waterfalls through the gorge were super cool.

Look! The sun did try to come out. If you've never seen the size of these wind turbines, each of the blades is longer than an extra-long tractor trailer!
Some mule deer on the side of the freeway.
Rylan was pleased as punch to see all the trains through the gorge but sadly, he wouldn't sleep for fear of missing some.

... and then it turned into a game where I had to take a picture of the trains we saw.
Ummm, burrr. This was mid-day in eastern Washington... with the sun shining!

The colors as we approached Spokane were really cool.
Shortly after Spokane, the sun went down. For those of you who know this route... remember we left the house at 5:52 am. We arrived in Missoula, MT at a little after 9:00 pm their time. That adds up to 14 hours in the car. The trip usually takes us 8 hours!

Needless to say, once we got there we had a very tired Jim and a very happy Carson. (Jim's cousins' 8 1/2 year old son)

This is the re-cap of our first leg of our trip. It was a nervous trip but the kids did great when they needed to. We tried to keep away from the crazy drivers and were very thankful to make it in one piece especially since we came up on 3 vehicles that had slammed guard-rails and spun across the road mere minutes before we drove by. Though it was a cold, snowy trip, the places that we were most nervous about weren't nearly that big a deal. It's funny, once you get on the other side of the Cascades, the snow issue is a whole different ball game. When we were driving around Missoula we didn't even hardly think about the fact that the streets weren't plowed!

It's Beginning to Look A Lot Like Christmas...

Yes, it is beginning to look a lot like Christmas around here. This is the scene that we awoke to this morning, and frankly a lighter version of what we went to sleep to! If you notice, it's the winter version of Eli's garden! It snowed all day and it's dumping on us again. Jim has never taken a sick day from work but he does take the occasional weather day, and today was one of those days. He did take the van for a test drive and had to chain up to get home so, that's where he stayed thankfully. Oh, and I didn't end up going to my OB appointment either but I checked on the little one and he/she is still alive with a heart rate of about 173 bpm this morning.

Not only is it beginning to look like Christmas outside, but inside as well. Only, it's not that decked halls, cookies baking in the kitchen look. It's the gifts boxed up, emergency kit assembled, clean laundry and half packed suitcases all over. Nice. I cannot leave the house a mess so any time that we leave for a little while, I'm like a crazy person. This year however, I just haven't felt good from the nasty virus that I am still trying to kick and I've had a headache (feels like a stress headache) for the last two or three days which makes it hard to do much... which stresses me out even more. Speaking of stressing out, I thought I was going to lose my mind when I thought about packing for a week. I can still wear one pair of my jeans (eeep) but they don't feel good at all. I had just done some clothes shopping the week before Eli's heart stopped so I knew that I had an outfit upstairs in my drawer but it was like my own little mini jack pot when I opened the drawer. I actually have three pair of pants that fit now and I can just continue to wear some of my looser fitting shirts. Sure, it's not enough to get me through a week but I can do laundry.

Speaking of Eli... one of my girlfriends sent us a Christmas card today and in it was the most perfect little silver angel ornament. I've wanted to get one for Eli but haven't been able to make myself do it. What a wonderful gift! Jim hung it right near the top of our tree right out front and the crystal on it catches the light just perfectly!

We'll be heading out e.a.r.l.y. Saturday morning and heading towards Montana via the Columbia Gorge. We are hoping to get out in front of the next nasty snow/ice (yay!) storm that they are predicting for this area later that day and into Sunday. We'll be going as far as Missoula and staying with Jim's aunt and uncle which is such a warm and relaxing stop. Then Sunday morning I have my own personal "beauty" appointment set up. Karleigh may join me and Jessie may trim her hair while mine sits and then we'll be on to Billings. Hopefully we'll get to grab some national championship Griz gear while we're there... the game is tomorrow in Chattanooga (Mel!) so GO GRIZ! And please keep us in your thoughts and prayers for a safe trip. Jim has put his mad Eagle Scout skillz to use and has all sorts of emergency preparedness stuff for us so hopefully we won't need any of it! Hopefully I'll get a chance to check in again but until then, Merry almost Christmas!

More snow and cold!

As you can tell, yesterday was another snowy day here as was today. The stuff we have now, isn't going anywhere for a while. Jim took the kids outside yesterday even though it was very cold and very windy. They didn't stay out too long but you can't deny a kid from the pacific northwest a chance to play in the snow when you have it. Although these kids get it more often than others in the area since we are at about 1300 feet in elevation, they don't love it any less. It was chilly though around 18 to 20 degrees and the wind was blowing up here about 35 mph. The snow was certainly not falling, it was go every which way but down. They got to play crazy outside with daddy, do a little sledding, made a couple snow angles and came back in... and didn't ask to go back out again!

Luckily, we ate dinner early last night because with the east wind howling, it knocked our power out for a few hours. We got the stove going and were able to keep the house warm but the wind was scaring the kids even after the power came back on around 9. Rylan actually fell asleep in my arms which he hasn't done in a very long time. It was so nice though, you don't often get that from a big three year old unless they're sick. The combination of cold weather and lack of power froze up the pressure pipes for our water pump so we didn't have decent water pressure at all. So, around 10 pm, Jim trekked down the hill with the 4 wheel drive pick up truck to fix that in um, 12 degree, insanely windy, weather. He was able to hold the switch to fill the tanks in the basement so we had running water and power by the time we got into bed around 10:30 last night. Come to find out though, in that trip down and back up, the 4 wheel drive in the truck managed to get locked so that's not working right either. Of course! Luckily, that's just our back up vehicle and by this morning the road crews had, plowed, sanded and de-iced our hill so taking the car to work was no problem for him. It does seem that when something goes, it all goes though doesn't it?! I got the pump guy out here this afternoon and he explained where the issue really lies and I'll just say that we're lucky that nothing is broken down at the pump because there were frozen pipes, not a frozen switch - so Jim was messing with a whole lot of pressure that in the words of the fatherly pump guy "can often end up going boom, and nobody wants that." Yikes! So, the way to thaw it out is with a torch. Go figure. Who would have thought that using a torch would be safer than flipping a switch!?!

First Snow!

We have our first snow of the season! The kids were super excited when they woke up and saw it even though it's really just a dusting. We're supposed to get a fair amount more tonight. It's pretty much been snowing all day but the temp right now is at that right in between place where it's just soppy wet but still snowing hard. I can hear the few cars outside the window and some are having more luck than other navigating the hill but that's par for the course up here. So, for now, I'll just share a couple pics and then I think I'm going to join the kiddos for a nap!

This is the "this is the closest thing to a smile you're going to get since you made me stop playing to smile" smile:

This is the "you can't make me look at you" look:

And, what's a little slave labor? The snow was so wet that it stuck to the dish so of course very little was coming in!

That's it for now and hopefully, if we have to put up with this crazy cold snap that they're predicting, we'll actually have some snow to play in! If we get it tonight, it'll be sticking around for the next 5 days or so.

The Last You'll Hear of It...

Hopefully this is the last that you'll hear of the tooth. It's such a very small thing in all that we're all dealing with but it's a pretty cool thing when you're not quite 5 and I was reminded that I haven't shown a pic of the actual tooth, so here it is in all its wonky glory. The root really does come out at an angle like you see. Weird. And with that, that's hopefully that last you'll hear of the tooth!

I cannot believe that Christmas is so rapidly approaching - the gifts are all wrapped except for one last one for Karleigh which I have to finish up tonight and then it's pretty much hurry up and wait. We may bake some cookies this weekend for Karleigh to take into her teachers and aids since I'm sure no one needs another coffee mug and then we're good to go! But now I need to get to sewing that last felt sugar cookie!!!

Sleeping with a Smile...

This one's just a quickie but I HAD to share! I fell asleep last night, even with my nasty cold and the computer drama, with a big smile on my face. I decided to get out my doppler last night, squirted the aloe vera gel on my tummy and BAM! within 7 seconds, had baby's heartbeat! Such a great sound, beating away at 171 bpm. It is a great relief to know that the little one is big enough for me to spy on from time to time. I'm surprised how high he/she is already though - we're talking a good 4 inches above my pubic bone. I did know where to look though since I've had the three ultrasounds, I figured where they found baby before would be a good place to start! Crazy!

A "Model" Patient!

Here's her new smile! Karleigh did so great today, the dentist called her a "star patient". I was very proud of the little peanut. She has some spatial issues, loves to cuddle but doesn't like to be held down at all and can get a little claustrophobic at times. You never would have known it today! We gave her some Motrin about an hour before the appointment, as suggested. We got there and she colored for a while and we went back to "the dolphin room" - which is conveniently located back away from the cleaning stations. Her only request was a pair of sunglasses to wear during everything. She picked raspberry for her smell of the nitrous but man they had a bunch of different options from peanut butter, to chocolate, marshmallow, grape, watermelon and more. Then they numbed her up with a gel, I'm assuming much like Ora-gel and then she got the Novocaine. She did so, so great. Never complained about the pressure and there was no pain at all. They used a little thing to push the gum away from around her tooth a couple of times and then basically used a pair of pliers to wiggle, wiggle, wiggle it out. It slipped out with what looked like a huge, long root on the end. Karleigh was quite proud of herself. It didn't bleed as much as I expected since mouths usually bleed quite a bit. She got a cute little pink tooth fairy box (I'll take a picture of that tomorrow since she asked the tooth fairy if she could keep the tooth) a popsicle - actually two - one for her, one for Rylan and a couple of tokens for the prize machine. She's such a little creature of habit and got herself another ring and a super bouncy ball for Rylan. I love how she ALWAYS thinks of him and shares with him even when he's not standing right there, he was in the van with Jim, watching a movie. Jim picked up a few soft snacks and Horton Hears a Who... though Karleigh said she thought Horton looked more like a Larry... and we came home.



When we got home we were greeted by a laptop that wouldn't power up at all which made me less than happy, to say the least. This really isn't the most convenient time of year for me to be without my computer and photo editing programs and I could go on and on about that but I won't. Though I pride myself in giving great customer service... I'm not always the best customer. Jim, however, is generally a great, calm, mellow customer so he got to handle it and I stayed home. He managed to get us a loaner laptop (since ours won't be back until the 27th at the earliest) and an external hard drive which has every little bit of data that I had on my dead laptop. It took a few hours but he done good!



While Jim was gone, Rylan and I snuck outside and took a picture of the moon since he was so impressed with it coming up over the barn tonight. Just thought I'd share... looks cold doesn't it!?! The kids are keeping their fingers crossed for snow this weekend - we'll see. We're at the right elevation for what the forecast is predicting so far so time will tell!

One for the Memory Book...

One last snapshot of the "mutant" tooth for Karleigh's memory book! That silly thing gets wiggled out, as the dentist puts it, tomorrow at 2 pm. She's actually quite excited about losing her tooth again and I think she's become a bit self conscious about it. Even her pre-school director joked that she looked like a jack-o-lantern... I'm sure it was said with love but why draw attention to it? Bottom line is it's coming out to protect the health of her gums and the permanent tooth that is right up against it. She should have one interesting Kindergarten photo next school year though as her two bottom, middle teeth are loose too and I figure once one falls out, the other will be right behind it. She may have to give up her love for apples for a while in exchange for applesauce at the rate she's going!

I've been quiet because, frankly, I've been sick as a dog. No, I can't blame baby... I'm the baby. I have a cold virus that's got me all messed up - fever, headache, sinus cold that's working it's way into my chest, knotted up neck and shoulder muscles that keep me from holding my head like a normal person (thank goodness for the back up camera on the van!) Blah.

I hope to have a photo of the chicklet tomorrow after she gets that tooth taken care of - I'm sure she'll be happy to show off!

First OB Appointment...

Huh?! Yah, technically today I had my first OB appointment. The others were intake and ultrasounds. So, I went today... I hate how nervous I get before my appointments now but I guess that's going to be my reality. I went and they got me right back, urine sample, weight (already gaining like I did with Karleigh) and bp. I also had my pap and got my girls felt up (for a good cause of course). While listening to my heart, Doc C asked me if I was a runner... that is laughable! He said that my heart sounds like a runners heart so I must be in great shape. He did commiserate with me though about how "annoying" a heart beat like mine can be, he has the same thing. It has actually been bugging me a lot at night the last few days. Back in high school, my cardiologist diagnosed it as a "regular irregular heart beat". So it speeds up a lot, fills in with extra beats and it's very easy to feel it until it gets used to the increased blood flow - anyway, also explains why I was able to run long distances (though I don't particularly enjoy it) since it easily reacts to my body's increased needs... who knew?! He did not try to find baby's heart with the doppler today... instead he brought in the portable sono machine. Ahhh, there he/she was, wiggling a little bit with the nice strong flicker of the heart beat. Doc C also said that though the Subchorionic Hematoma is very unnerving for everyone, he wasn't positive, looking at it, that that's really what it is... and that's why all my sonograms are sent to the perinatologist's office. He thinks it looks more like a hypervascular area in preparation for a very healthy placenta. ... I like that diagnosis better but I will still continue to take it easy because to me, "hypervascular" also sounds like it could bleed easily. We all know that I don't want to see any blood even to the point that he gave me the option of opting out of my pap until my 6 week post partum appointment. I went ahead and did it though and so far so good.

Even though my nerves were on the high end... I think they will always be now, it was a good appointment. I go back again in two weeks. I wonder if they will be seeing me every two weeks from here on out or are just going to wait until all of us are feeling better about everything. For now, everything is good!

Here's today's pic of the blobby. I have no idea what the ufo over his/her head is... I don't remember that being on the screen so it may just be a glitch when it printed. The white arrow is pointing to the white spot that is the heart and the rest are labeled. Off at about 4-5 o'clock, you can see the shadow from a portion of the bleed. Like she said, it's substantial and is at least 3 times the size of the shadow and wraps around the gestational sac, along the top, to about 11 o'clock. I take comfort in the fact that she said it was already healing and I haven't had any spotting or bleeding from it yet so maybe I'll get lucky with this. I read a little saying today that said something along the lines of "If you're going to pray, why worry? If you're going to worry, why pray?"

Short Update...

Phew! Baby is doing well, measuring right on to ovulation date now (I thought that first measurement two weeks ago was off but that's ok) heart rate was steady at 158 bpm. She doesn't know if they'll change my edd again or just leave it. I really don't care, I just want a healthy baby and in the end 5 days is nothing. She spent a LOT of time looking at my ovaries and cyst, even checking blood flow and things of that nature, external, internal, lots of measurements so that made me kind of nervous. She also discovered that I have a "substantial but healing" bleed. I really hope that totally resolves itself and I don't see any brown spotting because spotting/bleeding of any kind has never ended up good for me. So, in a nutshell, baby is great... I'm kind of a mess but baby is fine! Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers! I'll be back later with the pics!

Bad Blogger...

I've been a really bad blogger lately! Thanksgiving made this last week fly by, which I'm totally fine with. That coupled with all the Christmas rush and I'm behind. We do have our tree up but we're not going crazy with the other decorations this year since we won't have anyone else here to enjoy it anyway which is actually a nice change. We have a few gifts that we're waiting on to arrive, a few to send out and then we're done! I'll be glad to have it done. The meaning of Christmas certainly doesn't escape me but it just doesn't have the same feeling that it did as a child. I mean, I never expected it to stay that way but it still kind of bums me out. Blah.

Things still seem to be progressing just fine. I'm a little nervous because my docs office called this morning and said that they needed to schedule my appointments. I figured they just missed something since I already have one scheduled for Friday and I called the Maternal Fetal Medicine office directly when I scheduled my NT scan. But instead, she told me that they need to get me in for a viability ultrasound... "like now". Of course at first my thought was "Woohoo! Yay for being followed closely and another peek at this little one." So I scheduled the appointment for tomorrow morning at 8:30. Drinking that 32 oz of water at 7:30 in the morning should be fun to say the least. However, as soon as I got off the phone the negative thoughts started... "this couldn't have waited until I go in on Friday?" "What's wrong now?" The reality is, I can't imagine that there would have been much that they could have seen on that first ultrasound anyway and as I recall, that was technically a dating scan - I was just lucky to see a heartbeat - so now they can do the viability scan and it's coded differently for insurance purposes. That still doesn't ease my nerves though. Luckily, I won't have to wait a long time to know what's going on either way. But to say the least, my mind has been pre-occupied with having a scan sprung on me so quickly. I assumed that I'd go to my appointment on Friday and we'd attempt the heart beat with the doppler and then if we couldn't get it, I'd get a quick scan.

So, that's the newest update. Still feeling very "first trimester" and my nerves are back on edge a little bit more than they had been. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be nothing but optimistic again.