Bad Blogger...

I've been a really bad blogger lately! Thanksgiving made this last week fly by, which I'm totally fine with. That coupled with all the Christmas rush and I'm behind. We do have our tree up but we're not going crazy with the other decorations this year since we won't have anyone else here to enjoy it anyway which is actually a nice change. We have a few gifts that we're waiting on to arrive, a few to send out and then we're done! I'll be glad to have it done. The meaning of Christmas certainly doesn't escape me but it just doesn't have the same feeling that it did as a child. I mean, I never expected it to stay that way but it still kind of bums me out. Blah.

Things still seem to be progressing just fine. I'm a little nervous because my docs office called this morning and said that they needed to schedule my appointments. I figured they just missed something since I already have one scheduled for Friday and I called the Maternal Fetal Medicine office directly when I scheduled my NT scan. But instead, she told me that they need to get me in for a viability ultrasound... "like now". Of course at first my thought was "Woohoo! Yay for being followed closely and another peek at this little one." So I scheduled the appointment for tomorrow morning at 8:30. Drinking that 32 oz of water at 7:30 in the morning should be fun to say the least. However, as soon as I got off the phone the negative thoughts started... "this couldn't have waited until I go in on Friday?" "What's wrong now?" The reality is, I can't imagine that there would have been much that they could have seen on that first ultrasound anyway and as I recall, that was technically a dating scan - I was just lucky to see a heartbeat - so now they can do the viability scan and it's coded differently for insurance purposes. That still doesn't ease my nerves though. Luckily, I won't have to wait a long time to know what's going on either way. But to say the least, my mind has been pre-occupied with having a scan sprung on me so quickly. I assumed that I'd go to my appointment on Friday and we'd attempt the heart beat with the doppler and then if we couldn't get it, I'd get a quick scan.

So, that's the newest update. Still feeling very "first trimester" and my nerves are back on edge a little bit more than they had been. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be nothing but optimistic again.