Busy, Busy...

And it feels good to be busy, busy. I got a call today that I'm very happy about and that will really help my healing. But, it kicked me into high gear to want to clean house. I hate to sound obscure but I will just say that one of my very best friends is going to come hang out for awhile and I bet it's going to be great. I am not brushing losing Collin under the rug but there are some people who just help you feel like your old self and I think this will be good for my healing and will help get me back to "normal" faster than last year. Last year it took me more than a month to leave the house, except for the hair cut drama and I just can't do that to my family again.

The other thing that is helping me feel like I can get back to "normal" a bit better is my physical healing this time is a million times easier. I lost so much blood when I delivered Eli that it probably took me a week or more before I could shower without feeling like I was going to pass out and then have to take a nap afterwards. Or feeling like I had run a marathon after carrying one load of laundry up from the basement. When you have a tough physical recovery, I think it makes the mental recovery even harder. I know that I will feel much better when my "chest" gets back to normal. Yes, my milk ended up coming in and that's frustrating and painful but I'm still hoping that it's doesn't end up as being as intense as it was with Eli.

I am finding myself going down the exact same roads (as far as the dealing process goes) that I did last year and Jim actually seems to be following me this time too. We are both ready to purge a lot of stuff from this house from attic to basement, get organized and stay organized. Of course the house isn't a total disaster area but there are a few places that we still need to work on. Closets, toy storage / purging, important paperwork vs. fire starter, the baby things, Christmas decorations and the list goes on and on. I haven't worked outside the home in over 5 years now and I highly doubt that I would wear any of my work clothes to work when/if I go back to work outside the home. Anyway, it's stuff like that. Not a big deal but will feel nice to have it donated. However, it's going to have to wait for about 2 weeks which is cool.

Again, I have to thank you all for your comments and emails. There are certainly some wonderful things that have been posted, emailed and said to me and I also truly believe that the support system that I have in place now deserves much of the credit for how I'm doing this time around. Thank you...