A Brick Wall...

It seems that today could be summed up with this photo that I "borrowed" from the great world wide web. I have felt today as though I'm trying to climb this wall, that I'm talking to this wall, that I'm trying to see thorough this wall... it's just not working.

I'm exhausted physically and that takes a mental toll. I see a ton of things around me that I want to do but I know I don't have the ability to finish some of them and the "sinking funds" to finish others. Derailing our family budget would not be a wise thing. It would not help me feel any better at all. So, now I get to try to climb this wall or break through it. I know I can, and will, do it but today is just one of "those" days where the tide is moving in quickly. There's really no particular reason for it today. It just is.

I know that I can handle it, that there are far worse things that I could be dealing with right now, but many times I wish it was just a steady curve of growth and healing instead of this crazy wonky thing that currently looks like the Stock Market graphs. *sigh* The great thing is that tomorrow is a new day. And to quote a lovely movie (Meet The Robinson's) I just need to "Keep Moving Forward..."

This song was something that I clung to when I first found out about my pregnancy with Eli... now it carries the same meaning, just in a totally different perspective.
Don't forget to pause the music on the play list to your right before watching the video.

Here are the lyrics for you if you don't know the song:

Let it go,

Let it roll right off your shoulder

Don't you know

The hardest part is over

Let it in,

Let your clarity define you

In the end

We will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made

In these small hours

These little wonders,

These twists & turns of fate

Time falls away,

But these small hours,

These small hours still remain

Let it slide,

Let your troubles fall behind you

Let it shine

Until you feel it all around you

And I don't mind

If it's me you need to turn to

We'll get by,

It's the heart that really matters in the end

Our lives are made

In these small hours

These little wonders,

These twists & turns of fate

Time falls away,

But these small hours,

These small hours still remain

All of my regret

Will wash away some how

But I can not forget

The way I feel right now

In these small hours

These little wonders

These twists & turns of fate

These twists & turns of fate

Time falls away but these small hours

These small hours, still remain,

Still remain

These little wonders

These twists & turns of fate

Time falls away

But these small hours

These little wonders still remain