... in the Pacific Northwest, my emotions, that is. Seriously, it's nearly April and I snapped these photos today around noon and no, it's not rain... it's SNOW! I guess it just goes to show, even the weather is allowed to do some wild swinging back and forth. So, I'm okay with allowing myself to do the same thing. I know that yesterday I wrote about being tired, exhausted really. Last night I slept about 12 hours straight, thanks to Jim having today off, and it felt good but I'm still tired. I think that physically I'm just needing to catch up to where my mind is and that's part of my problem.When you bring home a live baby you're supposed to give yourself about 6 weeks before you start to feel like your "normal" self again. It's only been 5 weeks since we said both "hello" and "goodbye" to Eli. It's slightly comforting to know that this wound is still very fresh even though at many times, it feels like it was in another life time. I think my body has FINALLY caught on to the fact that we don't have a live baby to care for, my head has known for a while and my heart will always know that someone is missing.
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Thinking of you today, take care of yourself. Hugs!
Girl i feel ya! We are spending our 1st winter in MI and hating it, lol! Where is spring????
-h
I understand every word you said! I have two with me here on earth and one angel in heaven. I miss my dear Madeline. Many times when we are together, my husband our two daughters and myself, I really feel that she is missing. There should be five of us not four. It makes me appreciate my two living angels even more. My heart felt sympathies are with you.
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