More Rain...

Today was full of more rain in various forms from torrential downpours, to tiny sprinkles with the sun shining through, to the grey steady thump of pounding hail and back again. It's ok though. As it has been said, "it takes a lot of rain to make the grass so green." So, bring it on!


I continue to sit in this weird place of limbo right now. I want time to hurry up, I want to move on, I want to heal more (hello, physical healing... I'm ready for that). I know what the emotional healing is like and I know that it does get easier. Though there will always be a scar, the wound will heal. At the same time I want everything to slow down. I don't want to watch my life race past me even if I am a very willing participant.


Daily, I think about Eli and how his short life continues to impact mine. I often spend so much time talking about how great it is when something, understandably "good" happens. I admit that I also spend time fretting about those things that would normally be considered "bad" - disease, yucky weather, death (in no particular order). It turns out, that God has a plan and it can't all be lollipops and unicorns - because let's face it with that much sugar and that much unicorn hair... well, I'm sure you can picture it. There's a delicate balance that God has put in place and I have to embrace it, the good and the bad. I have to believe that there is a much greater reason that Eli came in to our lives even beyond "the Lord gives and the Lord takes away." I have stopped praying for sunshine, started welcoming the rain and whatever makes this soil rich.

2 Corinthians 12:9-10

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.