Manic Monday...

Yikes! It's late again and I'm just now sitting down to gather my thoughts... and I don't really seem to have any!!! Today has been another day of house work and home improvements. The weather was beautiful and just an all around good day again. I'm so loving that the days are getting brighter and easier. I was driving home from a trip into Portland today and I realized that something that was so easy today, would have felt nearly impossible just a few short weeks ago - just getting the kids ready, getting in the car and going would have been a really huge task. Today I accomplished that task without hardly batting an eye. It feels really nice to have turned that corner.

Part of me does wonder if all of this energy is really "nervous energy" and just another way to avoid my emotions but I'm thinking that's not the case. I think I've done a pretty decent job dealing with my emotions and I'm coming to terms with the fact that they're not always going to be as raw and as fresh. It's so relieving to feel the grips loosening but at the same time it's kind of sad to know that I'm moving past the intense part of missing and grieving Eli.

Finally, I thought I'd "show off" what that "nervous grief nesting energy" managed to produce over the weekend... it's oh, so cozy and wonderful to feel good about my surroudings!