The Big Picture...

So, today was a MUCH better day! It started off last night with going to bed early since I knew I was tired and Jim let me sleep in late this morning. Last night, just moments before I shut my computer, I received a message from one of my friends. She said that she had been thinking of me all day, and checked in to read and knew that her devotion for yesterday was there for her to share with me...

2 Corinthians 4:17-18

Momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

Of course, it makes perfect sense and was received at just the right time because honestly, I was on the verge of tears just from frustration alone yesterday. She pushed me over the edge with that message but in a good way. So, since the message was received just before bed, I had a lot of time to let the passage and her other words sink in. When I woke this morning this first thing I started thinking, through my foggy brain was really, in the grand scheme of things, my missing Eli and my frustrations right now are like a single grain of sand on all the beaches and the bottom of the oceans of the Earth . Pretty minor - when you look at the big picture. The problem is that I wasn't keeping the big picture in mind yesterday and that's why it felt so overwhelming. So, as Yoda would say "focus on the big picture, I must!" No, I'm not a Star Wars fan but that's for the hubby!

As far as the planning ahead goes, well that's something I will always struggle with. I am a habitual list maker, I like to, ironically, have a vision of what the big picture is... the long term plan... but I tend to only extend that plan to the existence as we know it, that 79.4 years - give or take - that we have on this Earth... that's NOT the big picture. Yes, I understand that I'm being tested in a way. I have even come to accept it but that doesn't mean that enjoy that part of this journey. I should start embracing it though. I know that things always work out in the end.