And turn it into a day that looks like these yummy banana milkshakes!
Score one for God and score a little one for me too. My kids are blown away by the fact that I could take something that looked so "yucky!" and turn it in to something so yummy! But I was cool like that, even if for just a moment. I received bonus points for adding the sprinkles in the pink cup for K and "HAWK-lit" sprinkles for R.
God, on the other hand is pretty awesome but we already knew that. Now, don't get me wrong, there was nothing wrong with this day... that disaster was avoided but it could have been really difficult.
This evening Jim had a softball game and I rushed the kids out the door so we wouldn't be late. I stopped at the mail box and there was a lovely little package there from a woman from R's "birth board". For those of you who don't know, I have made some of the most wonderful friends there on Baby Center... it's weird. A lot of people don't get it, but I do. Anyway, she sent me a wonderful Mother's Day card and a beautiful bracelet. Yes, I opened it while sitting in the car = I have mentioned that lack of patience thing right? As we got closer to civilization, I prayed for a red light so I could put it on before we arrived at the ball park since I rushed out of the house without any of my usual jewelry except for my wedding ring and earrings which I always wear.
When we arrived, we were met in the parking lot by a family on the team. We've known them since I was pregnant with K but a year ago they had a baby boy and this was the first time I had seen him. I had also completely forgotten that they call him Eli... as I recall his first name is Elias but he now clearly goes by Eli. I began to remember this little fact as we pulled into the driveway but I began to question my memory and thought that maybe my brain was making something out of nothing. As I put on my best 'happy face' to introduce the kids, I found myself grabbing my wrist every time his mom said his name. It was the most bizarre thing. At the same time it was comforting to hear his name over and over and over again, yet it also felt like a dagger through my heart each and every time. I was hoping that K wouldn't say anything - she did look at me for a moment but just let it go - phew. Anyway, tonight this bracelet was a total sanity saver by helping to keep me focused. It was really tough not to get weepy while watching R be the big boy with their little Eli, sharing, talking to, rubbing his arm when he got upset... THAT is exactly why I get sad about losing our Eli... it's the things that he would have added to our family that I feel cheated out of. However, God always puts the right people in our lives at just the right time.
Not only is this woman very thoughtful but she is the type of friend who gets me... in her card was this verse:
John 16:22
You have pain now; but I will see you again, and your hearts will rejoice and no one will take your joy from you.
The verse is actually Jesus speaking to his Disciples, prior to being sentenced to his crucifixion, but is holds so true for anyone who believes and the fact that He did die on the cross makes the verse ring true for all of us. Thank you.
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