Somewhere in the Middle

Hopefully the first song that starts playing on my play list (at the bottom of this page) is Somewhere in the Middle by Casting Crowns. You know the way God works, you come across words that just "magically" speak to you and where you are at the moment. Clearly not magic but you know what I mean. This song totally sums it up for me. I've mentioned, quite a bit I think, that I'm feeling different. Content and yet, not. Lost but found. Happy and sad...


Somewhere between the hot and the cold
Somewhere between the new and the old
Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me


Somewhere between the wrong and the right
Somewhere between the darkness and the light
Somewhere between who I was and who You're making me
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me


Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control


Fearless warriors in a picket fence, reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end and we are caught in the middle
With eyes wide open to the differences, the God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dreams for His or are we caught in the middle
Are we caught in the middle


Somewhere between my heart and my hands
Somewhere between my faith and my plans
Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves


Somewhere between a whisper and a roar
Somewhere between the altar and the door
Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more
Somewhere in the middle You'll find me


Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control
Lord, I feel You in this place and I know You're by my side
Loving me even on these nights when I'm caught in the middle


And just when I think I am alone and caught in the middle, He screams at me, "You are not alone!"

Jim brought the mail up this afternoon and between the High 5 magazines, and a CD renewal notice for Rylan (at least his 'portfolio' continues to grow), there was a padded envelope from one of my friends. Isn't this beautiful? There was a really sweet card with it too but sometimes the things that are said get to be mine. Obviously I took it outside (notice the sun!?!) to take a photo of it so I could try to share its beauty here. It's a heart made from beautiful pieces of shattered glass that are fused back together... perfect.



While I was out there, I kid you not (J, you will get goosebumps from this), the first hummingbird of spring buzzed by and hung out for a few minutes. I could hear him coming and thought "no way" but sure enough. He came right over to the garden from where I pulled the rock. The rock is packed with natural garnets, January's birthstone, conveniently. I forgot for a moment that I even had my camera with me. Of course when I went to snap a picture, it was directly into the sun and I ended up with a white frame. But the point was not for me to get a picture of the hummingbird. I don't believe in coincidences. I was outside with the kids today, looking, listening, thinking that the hummingbirds were overdue for their return. And then he showed up at just the right time. Just me. Just the sun. Just the necklace. Just the hummingbird. And God speaking loud and clear through a whisper.