Fear Not

I'm certainly going through one of those phases right now. A dip. A high tide. A cloudy, foggy day. I know that that's all going to change but while I'm going through it, it's kind of a bummer.

"Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."

Isaiah 41:10

THAT? Is a really good thing to come across when you're feeling, slightly, like a Who. So tiny in such a large world that I wonder, can my cry even be heard? It's hard for me to remember that I am just as heard with my single prayer as one little boy who is receiving thousands of prayers on his behalf. And he deserves them. But while praying yesterday, I have to admit, the question "is He even going to hear me?" popped up several times. I did not let it stop me and I continued but it was so nice to sit down at my computer today and see the above verse.


Today was one of "those" days. Let's see, first I woke up still exhausted, Jim left for work, I walked out of the living room and 15 seconds later I hear :


Oh no!


Oh mom!


We broke it!


He broke it!


It's broken!


*cue crying* (Karleigh and Rylan, not me!)


I have no idea what's going on other than there's crying and some thing's broken. It's pretty incredible how quick your mind can think before your body can even move. I continue to calmly think "Gee, the house is totally clean, there's nothing they could have really broken..."


Wrong.

Apparently, Rylan had stood up on the couch and went to jump and fall on his bottom. In the process, he also jumped backwards far enough that his head flung back and hit the window. Thankfully, he did not get cut. I did have to pick tiny pieces of glass out of his hair but no blood is always a good thing. By the way, nice spring weather we're having huh?

The window that I circled is the one that I will be replacing. Yah. I haven't gotten around to that yet today. We had a play date scheduled, here, less than a hour after this all happened. Hey mom? Isn't that the same window you broke with your shoe just before the pastor and his family were coming up to the house for dinner?!?!? ;) Anyway, it's too cold and wet to repair it yet. The temp needs to be over 40 degrees and it needs to be fairly dry... neither of which is going on right now. I have it taped up though to keep the cold air out and to keep any more pieces from breaking off. Yes, more broke apart after I snapped the picture this morning.

Oh well! I'm totally capable of fixing it, I just wish that I didn't have to. I have everything that I need. I got the "stuff" and called the local glass shop so I could get it cut so it's all ready to go once we get a break in the rain. The play date went great, we haven't seen these friends in about a year and a half. In that time kids have grown and they added a little guy to their family who was born but 3 weeks after Eli was due. It was really good to hold him and be totally ok with it. He wasn't Eli, he was just another little guy. It was a little weird to think about what things would have been like had it all gone differently. But, it didn't. It was still good to tickle his ribs, stroke his hair and rock him until he fell asleep though.

It's been a strange week and it's only Tuesday! Wonder what else is going to sneak up on us!?! Doesn't matter, I fear not!