2 Months... again

I've used that title before. This time, it's for Collin. It's been two months since we said goodbye to him. I'm actually doing pretty ok with it which is nice. I have a friend, in one of my support groups online, who has the same edd. I would be 22 weeks 1 day pregnant. But, I'm not.

I've been continuing to focus on the projects around me which gives me a place to channel all the restless energy. We took 6 full bags of out-grown kid clothes to Goodwill on Wednesday. I packed up one big box to send to a friend in Michigan. We'll see where the rest ends up. I don't have the desire to have a garage or yard sale, though Karleigh really thinks we should! The "things" just sit and gather dust and get in the way of enjoying the other things around me. OK, not to a huge extent but just the thought of the things clutters my mind with thoughts of it not being used again or taking up space. It's complex. I have my list and I think I'll be posting the larger items on Craigslist for a couple weeks, maybe, and then anything left will be going to re-sale or Goodwill. I also figure, that getting several hundred dollars for the things that we have left will also help with that New Years Resolution to have all of our (stupid) revolving debt paid off by the end of the year. We should actually be able to accomplish that goal far before the end of the year. That's exciting to me, especially in this economy!

I've been kind of quiet. Not sure why. There are always things to talk about but I'm not really sure how to get all the thoughts down. I haven't had my camera out a whole lot the last few weeks so I don't even have pics to show. Life continues to continue though! Jim will be moving locations to open a new store in the area... yes, again, in this economy his sector and company continues to grow. Karleigh has another kindy open house, getting to know you type thing on Tuesday and in a couple weeks I'm taking Rylan in for his pre-school evaluation. Of course, seriously, like the day after I called he had another language explosion and is quite happy to show off all he knows, including his phone number, colors, counting, letters, letter sounds... I'm not concerned about him cognitively. at. all. but I am curious about his fine motor skills including his pronunciation. I don't have a lot to compare to though since Karleigh has always spoken quite well and when we were really involved in play groups, the kids were all quite a bit younger. I'll be glad to get a "professional" opinion from the school district instead of listening to the opinions of other parents.

That certainly went off on a bit of a tangent which is proof that I'm a bit closer to being back to "me". Again, not the same me, a different me but an OK me.

Did anyone catch ER the other night? Carter was relaying a proverb or quote at the end of it and I'd like to find it in its entirety. The gist of it was that "a man cannot stand in the same river twice because by the time he returns to stand in it again, the currents have changed the river so it is no longer the same." That really sums up what I've been trying to say when I mention that I've walked this path before but it's still different. I'd just like to have it written down in less scattered words.