I Think I'm Ready...

I think I'm ready to stop the "competition" with myself. I have written at least one entry per day since I started this blog and I have finally found that maybe, just maybe I can't keep up with the every day entries. As much as I am not looking forward to the thoughts of the next week or two (when we expected, back this winter to be holding a new baby), I think coming up on the due date is an important mile stone. It feels like it kind of completes that whole "what if" vein of thought. No, I will not wake up on the 8th of August and have all thoughts of Eli buttoned up and put away but I do think... hope... that it will feel like some of this craziness is behind me. I've been looking forward for a while now and now it's time to put my words into actions I think.

I still expect to be on here quite often. I'm hoping that some day I'll be able to use the blog for a pregnancy that lasts longer than 5 1/2 weeks, or 12 weeks, or 17 weeks... that goes full term and is full of health and happiness. But for now I'm feeling ok with where I am in my healing process with losing Eli and I don't want to mess that up!