5 Months...

Five months, Eli's been gone from my body. I miss him, for me, but I know he's in a perfect place. Today did not rock me like some of his other angelversaries have. We busied ourselves by getting lunch out, going through the car wash (a big excitement for the kids), going to mall, Costco, a home improvement store and the grocery store. It was a good day, all things considered. It was a little surreal doing school shopping for Karleigh but it was all good. I hope this is a glimpse of things to come. It was nice just being able to shop, look towards the future and not get totally sad about the "would have beens". I even saw a few brand new babies today and smiled instead of feeling an overwhelming sense of loss. I think that makes for a pretty decent day!