As you can see, our little caterpillars are getting ready to go through a miraculous change. Before they form the chrysalis, they crawl to the top of their container and hang upside down kind of like a letter J. By tomorrow, I expect that all 5 of them will be in this position and beginning their transformation to beautiful butterflies.
But me, to put it bluntly... I suck at change. I shop at my familiar stores and drive on familiar roads. I have my typical foods that I order and Jim doesn't even have to ask me what I want from Starbucks. I like my routines and my safe places. I do not like change. Sadly, that's a conflict that I'm going to need to deal with. There seems to be change every time I turn around these days but I know it's not just me. I think I'm just having a difficult time processing it all.
I suppose that's part of the internal drama that I face when trying to have another kid. Every day brings change - one more obsession, one day closer to something different but I can't prepare myself for what it is because I don't know which way things are going to go. Yah. I'm not so good at that.
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baby steps.
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