Holding My Breath

I'm at a point where I'm ok with saying "I'm holding my breath." 2010 is off to a pretty great start around here! I'm basically a year out from losing Collin. Right now it seems like a whole other lifetime. I've got big things behind me and big things in front of me and that feels really good.

Karleigh is now six! She had her 6th birthday party with her Daisy Scout friends and it was great. It was noisy and chaotic and hot but I don't think they could have had more fun. The bonus? The party was held at a local kids play area. They took care of the set up and clean up. I just provided the cupcakes for the girls... she didn't even want me to go to the work of making a regular cake this year. Although it's not cheap to have a party at a play place, I think we actually came out money ahead and there's no doubt that I came out ahead on the stress level!

For her actual birthday she just wanted a "pj day" with pizza at home after staying up late on New Year's Eve and a slumber party in the living room. Easy enough! So we all sat around in our pj's all day, watched the parade, movies, she opened presents and we ate pizza. Not too shabby!

Today was back-to-school again and both kids were thrilled to get back at their routine... which unfortunately includes lots of whining from an over-tired Rylan at the end of the day and me totally forgetting to pack a snack for Karleigh but she was fine, her teacher has back-up snacks and Karleigh laughed at us for being so worried about it. She was just happy to get back to her friends and class today.

On the baby front, things are still going great and I'm thankful for Every. Single. Day. It's odd how I still feel newly pregnant even though I'm past the 24 week mark. I really should get on pulling it all together because I know that I hate feeling like I'm behind the 8-ball and it's all going to go really quickly from here on out. The third trimester always seems to go so fast and it's really weird for me to realize that it's just around the corner. On the other hand, aside from dragging the cradle out of the closet and purchasing a car seat I have everything to take care of a baby right now. We might be having to do laundry frequently but it could be done. It could also be done to a point where I'm much more comfortable with everything and that's what I'm aiming for!

So needless to say, I'm excited for 2010. I'm really going to focus this year on controlling the things that I can and doing those things to the best of my ability and equally as important... not worry about the things I have no control over. It's not an original idea or concept but it's one that I need to bring back into focus. My life has had areas, obviously, where I've had zero control over the situations and I think everything else got kind of dragged down with it. I'm ready to move forward!