Nerves...

I sure wish I had nerves of steel but anymore? I do not. Tomorrow afternoon is the first ultrasound for this pregnancy. It will be the earliest one I've had so far and I'm not expecting to see much more than a gestational sac and yolk sac... hopefully. Also, my appointment got moved back a couple hours so now it's not until 1:30 because the Dr. wanted to see me immediately following the ultrasound.

On the upside, because of the appointment change, my girlfriend is bringing her new baby girl over so I can get some pics of her and then she's going to stick around and watch all four kids, her two (under one!) and our two so that Jim can go to the appointment with me. I was just going to go to her place after the appointment. We've been horrible at asking for help in watching the kids so Jim has missed out on a lot of the "good" appointments and also the really "bad" appointments too. I really, really pray that tomorrow gets to fall under the "good" category. Of course I'm very familiar with the reality that even a perfect appointment can quickly turn the other way. So still, it's day by day for me.

While I agree with Dr. B and love it when science works... I believe that there's more to it. God is totally in control of this and that helps me calm down when I start feeling like I'm totally out of control...
because I am.