It's that weird time of year for me, so pleased that Karleigh has celebrated another birthday but at the same time, knowing with each birthday that she celebrates, that's another year since Collin's heart stopped. Last year I was so thankful to be pregnant with Stella and this year, so thankful that she is with us to celebrate the new milestones. It's been a really good year for us and I'm really working on being ok with being ok with how things have transpired over the last several. I have lots more good days but they can still be peppered with anxiety and bad dreams, things are steadily improving though.
We celebrated Karleigh's birthday this weekend. It's almost hard to believe that she's seven. She seemed to thoroughly enjoy her "rainbow art party" even though she was quite tired from ringing in the New Year with us.
We also had a good Christmas at my parent's house, worked in lots of Christmas outings with the kids, sing-a-longs, lights, etc. We've had snow, colds, another ear infection for Stella... pretty much super duper "normal" stuff. It's been nice.
I'm trying to decide where I'm going to "go" with this blog. I don't know if it feels like it's doing much for me... and that pleases me. I feel guilty when I neglect it and while it helped me to really get to a place of peace (most days) I'm not sure what it would do for me now. At this point I just feel guilty for not writing. I mean, it's not like I'm making money for it, or have lots of fans/followers (such an odd concept to me). And? Considering if my New Year's Resolution could be summed up in one word, it would be SIMPLIFY... maybe I need to lock this one down, make it private or what not. I'm not going to delete it, there's too much for me to be able to do that but I just don't know. Perhaps I'll just shift over to my photo blog and get into more detail when I feel like it... decisions, decisions... none of which will be made tonight because the little Miss is awake and screaming after 3 great hours of sleep. Some day she will sleep well, I'm certain of it... I'm just getting impatient for that day... night.
3 comments:
I love your rainbow party idea. Very cool!
I get why you are trying to figure out what to do with your blog. Makes perfect sense.
I am glad I found you when I did. I have been following you for about 2 years now. When I found you, I had just been through something very traumatic with my then 1 year old son. My husband and I almost lost him. Even though he lived, I still had such a hard time moving on from that moment. It would paralyze me at times. He also has a bleeding disorder which at the time I was still trying to figure out how to deal with. It helped connecting with other moms who were still having to pick up the pieces and go on and still do their mom job. I know you don't know it but you really helped me get through some of the toughest times of my life. I also, cried many tears for you too. It was almost like I could feel what you were feeling. I lost a baby many years ago. I think about that child every day of my life.
Anyway, I just want to say I am glad God led me to you and if you do decide to take your blog private I am so glad I got to be a part of your journey for a short time.
Hugs and prayers from Tennessee
PS....your kids are the cutest!!!
Happy New Year and happy Birthday to Karleigh. You always do such a great job with decor! Looks amazing!
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Your party pictures look incredible! I love the cupcake (and candy) idea and the SEVEN in the background is such a great idea. Everthing is so cute! I have to "steal" your ideas for my own kids' birthdays (one in the spring and the other one summer so I have a while to get ready!) :)
I always enjoy your blog. I started following a couple years ago also when my niece lost a full term baby. I somehow felt like I could relate to her better by hearing how others were coping and it also helped me understand better how I could be a support for her.
I always enjoy your pictures too and I like to hear how life is going for you. Good luck in what ever you choose to do.
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