Randomness

It's been over a week since I blogged anything. No particular reason. This is a tough time of year for me and I slipped little over the last week, falling into a funk. Most people don't "get it" and I'm glad about that. Most people think I should be breathing easy now. I've made it past my major points in time but I'm not also so naive as to think that I'm bullet proof now. My heart has gone out to too many who were in the clear too. I'm not trying to have a Debbie Downer attitude, in fact I'm really trying desperately to avoid that but it's hard, dare I say, impossible to not slip at some point. I am very thankful for one of my "soul sisters" who lovingly reminded me that it's OK and that it's always the darkest before the light.

We received the infant car seat last week, it's cute! I'm always a little nervous about ordering something on-line before seeing it in real life. Ironically, we received Stella's going home outfit (that we let the kids pick out) on Eli's 2 year birthday? ...there really is no right word for it... I've been doing a lot more shopping on-line this time than ever before. However, after the last attempt to go shopping with two kids who are generally very well behaved in public, I couldn't be more pleased with the on-line shopping option. Plus, the UPS driver actually brings my packages closer to the house than when I park in our driveway out of the way for the mini-bus. Also super exciting was receiving some cute, tiny pj's in the mail from one of my fellow bloggers who has followed along for the last 2 years. She has a daughter born the same time that Eli would have been had he made it to term. Thank you!

Wow, this is really boring! There's so much in my head. Some that I want to say and some that I want to keep for myself.

Oh, I had an OB appointment on Wednesday and, as you might recall, several weeks ago I was measuring a bit ahead... now I'm measuring a bit behind. I'm not worried at all though as measuring fundal height is certainly a far cry from a perfect science. Everything else was perfect though. I'll go back in two weeks again. I really feel like I should have SOME questions but I just don't really. Oh well, makes for quick appointments.

My Braxton Hicks contractions are starting to get pretty intense. They must get stronger with each pregnancy because I don't even remember noticing them with Karleigh. I've had a few contractions that feel like the (early) real thing but nothing to get excited or concerned about.

Other than that, we've just been going about normal life... Daisy scouts, school, cleaning, rearranging furniture, re-rearranging furniture ;) and trying to get things marked off of my to-do list without adding too many new things to it! I could probably pound it out in a few days if I really focused but the fact that I've decided that bending over to pick anything up is overrated, well... it's probably going to take a bit longer.

So, that's where I've been. It's not all been a black abyss but there have been a few dark days. There have also been some really bright points. I suppose it all averages out and makes it normal and that's all I've been going for all along anyway right?