First Appointment...

Oh, don't get all excited! It was just the nurse/intake appointment. We went over my yucky history, height 5' 3.5"(love when then give me that .5"), weight 129 (hello bloat!), BP 112/74 (even after that weight!), went over what OTC meds are ok, foods, testing, 6 viles of blood and pee in a cup, yadda yadda yadda. Not a bad appointment but it was really weird to be back and talking about pregnancy like nothing is going to go wrong. I felt strange talking about things like appointments after 20 weeks, where we want to deliver. Very odd.

I do have to say that I think I did a pretty good job today. I stayed upbeat for the most part and only choked up a little bit once. I had asked, back in March I suppose, if I could get a couple copies of the last ultrasound that I had after Eli's heart had stopped beating. I know he wasn't alive anymore but he looked totally perfect on the screen. The office told me "no problem you'll just have to come in and sign a release and we'll give them to you." I asked if I could get those today and it seems that after the pathology and autopsy reports were added to my file, the ultrasounds were thrown away. *sigh* It would have been nice to have those.

It does all seem to be going so fast right now. I have an ultrasound scheduled for next week already. I'm not sure how much we'll see at that point since it will be the earliest one I've had so far but with my numbers what they are, I should be able to see something reassuring. My first OB appointment is scheduled for December 5th with Dr. C. He's the one who I saw when I knew Eli had died, was on-call when I delivered and performed the surgery following delivery. He's a nice guy and I really hope that I can stay "cool". I haven't seen him since February.

I know that this is a different pregnancy, a different situation and a different baby. Numbers are great and symptoms are reassuring. Today was another big milestone in that I am now further into this pregnancy than I managed with any of the last 3 losses and there's no reason to believe that something has to go wrong.