Wasn't Ready for THIS...

Karleigh lost her first tooth tonight. She's still 3 and a half months away from turning 5 but it's out. So, she's sleeping right now with her tooth in a little satin pouch under her pillow. She had me write a letter to the tooth fairy - who she assumes looks like Tinkerbell with brown eyes, unlock the screen on her window so that the tooth fairy can get in and turn off her lamp so that she can get to sleeping. The good news is that the next one is already visible and she doesn't seem terribly traumatized by it. I wish I could say the same for me!

We had a great little mini-vacation over the last few days. We headed up to my parents house and took the kids to the Puyallup Fair, Pt. Defiance Zoo and Aquarium and then swung up to Mount St. Helens on our way home on Monday. The kids loved all of it and I have some fun snapshots that I'll share in the next couple of days. I wish that the mountain pics would have turned out better but it looked very hazy and there was just nothing that I could do about that. We haven't had any rain at all in September so that's a big part of the reason. We could also tell that it was really windy up on the summit and some of that haze was just dust and ash blowing around. Anyway, I'll complain about that in a few days down the road.

I did a fairly good job at keeping my mind off of all the "baby issues" while we were gone. Of course within 24 hours of getting home, no fewer than 7 friends and family members either announced their pregnancies or the arrivals of their new little ones. *sigh* I wish that I wasn't picking and choosing, in my head, which ones I'm happy for and which ones illicit a knee-jerk reaction from me of "oh, that's nice...". Dang it. I want to be happy for everyone but I'm still having a hard time with that on occasion. Let me repeat - occasion. Not always. Not every instance. It's still part of this process that I need to work through. I wonder when and if the day will come when I don't feel a pang of jealousy at these announcements. I'm not sure if it will though because it's not just the frustration that I feel at the announcements, it's the frustration that it's seems so easy for some people. That all they have to do is think "hey, let's have a baby" and they do. It doesn't matter if they're financially ready or not. It doesn't matter if they take care of themselves or not and in the end, they walk away with a healthy baby when I was wheeled out with a box.

Eh, it's not a pity party tonight. It's just one of those things. I had a great break from the awareness that is ever present when you're trying to have a baby and it's just like reality was leaving messages on my machine, waiting for me to return home and find them all... metaphorically speaking of course.