I've been such a blog slacker lately. A lot of it has to do with me really wrestling with some internal/emotional stuff and I've just needed to take a step back from things. I guess I say I need to take a step back but really, I've just been spending more time on the whole thought process of stuff... research, reading, thinking, making mental lists.
And it's exhausting.
Really, really exhausting.
And as much as I feel like I want to share that here, I just can't put it into words. Strange I know. I seem to be ok at getting the past written down but when it comes to the future? I'm not very good at that. Honestly? The future freaks me out! I know. Worry about today because it has enough worry for itself. But future... you're freaking me out. I just wish I knew what it looked like for us. Just a little bit. A tiny peek. But, even if I had that I wouldn't have a clue how we got there I suppose. The traditional approach isn't working so who knows?
Jim and I also celebrated our 10th wedding anniversary last Friday. 10 years! Double digits people, that's pretty cool to me. Especially when you think about everything that we've been though. OK, I know that there are plenty of people who have been through much more than we have but I think we're pretty blessed to be pretty much (relationship wise) unfazed by all the yuck that we've gone through. And honestly? Continue to go through.
My mom came down and watched the kids for us so we could get away together, alone, to the beach... did I mention alone?
Without the kids?
I love them to bits but now that they are getting older I was ready! Sure we talked about them and missed them in the "oh, that would be fun with the kids... some other time" way but we needed some alone time. We haven't been alone overnight without the kids since the night we were in the hospital delivering Eli. Before that? we had never left Rylan and hadn't left Karleigh overnight except to have Rylan!
Sad.
I know.
It was time and we all survived.
In fact, I think we flourished!
Jim and I took off and headed to the Oregon coast through our old college town. We stopped and walked around campus. Yowzers! that campus has changed in the *gulp* 12 years since we attended. Honestly? They took full advantage of the building boom that started as soon as we left. They must have averaged almost a new building per year. Sad however, was seeing many of the improvements named after people we knew. The tiny maples that lined the sidewalk outside the campus apartments where Jim and I lived (in different apartments at different times) are huge leafy canopies now. There are new residence halls, which are huge yet at the same time only added a little over 300 beds for students... may or may not have been the best use of money. Jim and I both drooled over the new baseball stadium. Not field. Stadium! and the brand spanking new lighted and covered! tennis courts.
Oh well.
Looks like our tuition went to a good cause and frankly? I wouldn't go back to 19 again just for that. But it does look really nice.
We even snapped our picture in front of the building where we met almost 14 years ago. The gabled window facing camera right was my dorm room when we started dating. :) Oh, how I could go on about crazy roommates.
But I won't.
But I will say if you get a crazy roommate, the next thing you do is get yourself a job at the Student Life office.
Then you get yourself a single, as a Freshman, just as soon as one opens up on your desired floor.
Just sayin'!

After our detour through Forest Grove, which, other than some street changes looks pretty darned exactly like it did when we left, we headed out to the coast.
Where it was almost 30! degrees cooler than it was inland.
But that was so beyond the point because we were kidless!
We got checked into the inn, which was great. Oceanside with a balcony, wonderful bed, fireplace, small kitchen and SO clean and then got cleaned up for our dinner reservations at Cannon Beach.


Yum! We were stuffed, wonderful food. The fog started rolling in so instead of hanging around Cannon Beach we headed back to Seaside and walked off some of our dinner, strolled back down the Prom and called it an evening. Then we decided (along with every. loving. person. in town) to make a quick Safeway run for breakfast stuff so we wouldn't have to rush in the morning.
And then we called it an evening.
Again.
We checked out around noon, wandered Seaside some more and then got the heck out of Dodge before we were stuck there. The Miss Oregon pageant was going on and it was a crazy house. We ate lunch along the river in Astoria, watched the boats go in and out and the huge salmon jump out of the water and decided to head home. It was all foggy and socked in at the coast, which felt about right since it was also Collin's due date. Well,
would have been, except for that whole heart not beating thing.

It was a wonderful get-away for the night and really nice to spend some time with the one who has stood by my through thick and thin! Oh and we weren't even missed (of course, I didn't think we would be) They got grandma one on one so they felt super special too!
Not too much more exciting stuff going on other than that.
Oh! Karleigh lost yet another tooth, making this number 5. So here's her new toothless grin from this evening! She was kind enough to let me wiggle it out (wiggle? yank? we're not going to discuss that right now!) before the sun went down. It was causing her so much pain, she ate half a piece of toast for breakfast today and that was it. She did drink water and milk but didn't want anything else, even soft foods. Poor kid. I had Jim pick up some Ora-gel on the way home so it wouldn't hurt her so much. The whole thing was out except for one tiny corner that was the spot that was giving her so much trouble. As soon as it came out she screamed "Yes! Finally! It already feels soooo much better!" She ate a bowl of ice cream, as I promised her, and then two peanut butter and jelly sandwiches (on hot dog buns!) Seriously, she was like a new person the rest of the evening... totally reminded me of the story, The Lion's Paw. I'm just wondering how long it will be until it comes down now. Her bottom teeth came in pretty quickly and I really do think I could see it right there so... we'll see!